Question: Why do I have so much difficulty with expressing emotions, especially in love? Both my husbands are/were strange, even kinky ... is that my doing?

Client 6

You have your Sun at 29 degrees of Virgo which shows that you are closing off a chapter in this lifetime, and set for a new beginning (Uranus at 0 deg Cancer in 8th) in a different direction. I find that Virgos, in general, seem to struggle with authentic and empowering relationships, perhaps largely due to their fussiness about partners. It would not surprise me if you have a whole list of "do's and don't's" which you may seek in a partner, and it then becomes important to separate the trees from the forest so to speak, by accepting others' faults. You will not find perfection in others, just identify whether you truly wish to be in a relationship, or not. We cannot have it all, and no matter how much we want our 'soul mate', that person simply does not exist. If that person did exist, imagine how many faults of that person would mirror image back to you, which would probably make you even more flabbergasted, in the sense that it is YOU who is mirrored to you, by your soul mate. Scary. Virgos are generally very left brain orientated, so perhaps you try to 'analyze' your part in relationships? There is yet another factor which I must consider, and that is your Scorpio Ascendant. Scorpio ascendant types are very intense and deep people, but also very sexually attractive or attracted to others. Combine that with a very strong Venus in your chart (Venus is ruled by your Taurus Moon, your overview in Taurus and your under-view in Libra) and we get a picture of someone who MUST have a relationship in their life. Venus also conjuncts your Pluto, indicating a potentially destructive love life OR an intense power play OR obsession about love. You question whether your husbands were kinky, and I have to partially involve you as well, due to the nature of Pluto/Venus in your tenth house.

Your point count shows 44% fixed planets and 36% earth planets, highlighting the Taurus theme. Taurus is probably THE most sensual sign in the zodiac, and with Venus being so prominent in your chart, it is all about relationships. It is at this time that I need to bring in 2 further important aspects of your charts, namely Chiron and Neptune, both being in a critical degree. The Neptune interpretation goes as follows:

Frustration, due to a refusal to conform, and Chiron says: Agonies involved with cleansing and ego orientated mind. In short, become flexible, look at alternatives and start to seriously look at your soul needs, namely your spiritual side. You have six planets on your 6/12 house axis to confirm this. The 6/12 house axis is all about service, something which you, as a Virgo, would understand better than most. You have incarnated to be of service to others, to help others, to look at non judgmental approaches to life, and to be of practical use to those around you. You have so much to give, and the rewards for giving cannot be equated with what you receive ... the payback is enormous. You need to somehow, bring spirituality back in a practical manner, whether you heal people, or work in a gym/ health shop, or support Green-peace, or work in a hospital etc. You have the asset of being practical, logical and you have extraordinary physical healing abilities, I'm just not sure how and where. You have a strong personal dynamic and are trustworthy and loyal. However, until you learn to respect your partner's needs, relationships will continue to hamper you. There is also a need to look at your inner 'male' due to Saturn interrupting your core planets. You need to move away from the physical for a while and focus on your spiritual development . Allow yourself some time out and reconsider what works for you. Analyze what it is that you seek in a partner, place your order with the Universe and thereafter let it go. There is a vast reserve of creative potential that needs to be developed (Neptune interrupts the core) but try to avoid the 'creation of children' and develop the 'creation of spirit', which will give you a spiritual high of 'orgasmic' proportions. You will satisfy your sexual needs in a way you've never experienced before, and that is WITHOUT kinky husbands. You will regain your power and turn around the energy of Venus in your tenth house. You will be recognized for your efforts and become a powerful person in your own right.

You are currently experiencing some profound changes in your life, and with your second Saturn return having come your way, it should all be much clearer to you. You have really gone through the works for many years now (Pluto in the 1st.hse) and are being further tested about your self worth. Transiting Pluto has now entered your second house of Taurus, and is telling you to come into your own, to do things without the need for others to show you the way. You are now self sufficient in every way and will be able to express yourself in a much better way (Pluto in the second is giving you the opportunity to open up your throat chakra). Transiting Saturn has just recently entered your 10th.house, and the time has come now to seriously look at what you are truly meant to do in this life, for yourself, by yourself. Use the energy of Venus by getting back to your roots, connecting with your family and finding solace within yourself. Recognize your higher self and move forward by focusing on yourself more than anything else in the world.

It is interesting to me that transiting Venus was going over your 7th.house of marriage and partnerships at the same time when you sent me this email. There is hope and the angels are just saying 'stop worrying about others, what they think and say, and move into your own future with conviction and assuredness'. Do not doubt yourself at every small obstacle, but love yourself for the beautiful human being that you are. Your progressed sun is going to move into the sign of Sagittarius within the next 3 years, which in my opinion will bring you spiritual alternatives with which you can work. Discover the potential that you have, be more flexible and love yourself more than you have ever done before. I hope it works out for you.

With gratitude,
Harry